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Nov 7, 2009

Confession ! 'The X-Factor'...

I had two options in life…either give up, get drowned or just stand up, hang in there & wait for the right time…but that required tons of patience and an attitude which was not me.


I was always a go getter…If something was distant then I ran…If something was locked, then I would find the key or break open the lock…I believed in creating my own destiny & I owed this attitude to Shakespeare who said, “Men Are The Masters Of Their Own Fate”. So was I too, but I never realized what fate was…

I also heard people talk and say “Its your fate”, “Leave one to one’s fate”, “That fateful day ”, “Twist of fate”. So is everything predestined or still men are the masters of their own fate. Whatever I do is it the result of a predestined course? or Whatever I do decides the course of my destiny? To answer this question again I had two options…either give up or just hang in there.

To hang in there…I had to alter my true nature and change into something that I was not use to. This was the dilemma which had no quick fixes. I decided to keep moving. I kept doing my bit and left the rest on the X-factor. Yes the X-factor…it is that X thing which somehow let the things come in our favor or go against our wishes. X-factor lets the situation evolve. It makes the picture clearer. It brings a problem to its conclusion. Its that X-factor which has been defined as The Hidden Power, The Devine Justice, also The Will Of God.

But what determines the X-factor…I really don’t know, I just kept doing my bit with a faith… that however tough it may be, however long it may take, however it is looked at by the world, I shall wait, wait and wait for the justice.

Its is this ‘wait’ that changes me…my fear to change disappeared as change was the only option I was left with. I forgot what my true nature was, I forgot how the world looked at me. My goal was justice and I was ready to wait for it.

This ‘wait’ meant being patient for justice and it also meant being undeterred from doing my bit…though the goal I was waiting for now appeared too small infront of the goal my new evolved self could perceive…The changed me was calm, patient, humble and persistent…I could understand myself more. Probably the magic of the X-factor was in my favour, or the changed me was attracting the magic of X-factor.

15 comments:

Aadarsh Rathore said...

बहुत गहरे विचार हैं....
कई बार तो पोस्ट को कई-कई बार पढ़ता हूं, तब जाकर गूढ़ बात समझ में आती है

अमृत कुमार तिवारी said...

i came to know dis secret after visiting ur blog..i got u an philosopher..the lover of thought and a poet. first time i have been through ur writeup. A nice poetic flow. here I got different Nishant.
then wat abt that nishant chturvedi who always indulge in hip-hop and
fultu funky mood?
Dada,,,ur writeup makes me feel suppose i am going through a kind of mysticism.

Well, wat have been ur fate or X-factor, i am not suitable to comment but here i remember a line of Khalil Gibran, A great lebanese writer that "The optimist sees the rose and not its thorns; the pessimist stares at the thorns, oblivious of the rose."

vanisha said...

It seems it is d extension of dat marathon runner. d difrence is dat u hv accepted dat u hv changed...wat or hw d change came doesnt matter much bt for d gud !

Puneet Tandon said...

This still is a journey and you are at a beautiful turn...enjoy this but never forget that the journey itself had so much to contribute and another event in your life may require much more of you and this happiness will form a part of that contribution. Stay put life has just begun for better or worse is a matter of perception or our selfish mooods that we are in at a particular time in our life, it still is the journey that matters and how we travel every bit of and marvel the beauty of the turns and events that unfold. Be good to yourself always and none will ever be harmed by you.

Anisha Saluja said...

Whatever we are is the result of our thought and action.. act with evil thought and pain follows.. act with pure thought and happiness follows.. happiness will always follow you coz you acted purely.. and then to reach for a cliff always requires lil bit of change.. and if that change is for good, that’s ok.. keep smiling always.. :-)

Om Prakash said...

Great. It shows. Grope even harder.

Mohit said...

यही है ज़िंदगी कुछ ख्वाब चंद उम्मीदें,
इन्हीं खिलौने से तुम भी बहल सको तो चलो...

आशीष जैन said...

सर आपका जब जब ब्लॉग पढा ,कुछ लेखो को पढ़ कर लगा मानो यह एक दार्शनिक द्बारा लिखा गया ,खूबसूरत लेखन ,वही एक दर्द जो आपको पीडा नहीं देता बल्कि एक विश्वास देता है ,,शुभकामनाये
ashish

antima said...

# Life is there to be lived. Life has no question-mark; it is a mystery, there is no explanation. And it is good that there is none: it would be a great misfortune if there were an explanation. If there were an answer that could satisfy you, just think how flat things would become, how boring, how monotonous — because no answer can answer your questions. Life remains an adventure, it remains a constant search. Searching, one day you come to a point where you understand that you are wasting your energies in searching. The same energies can be put to celebration. You can enjoy....osho

Jayasri said...

i think the X-factor was the change in you..

सतपाल said...

dheeraj,sanyam aur prishram mein aastha. inhin se nikalta hai samtal raasta. laajwab. sat pal

Shivani said...

bhai... when they say-tough times don't last, tough people do....guess it holds true for people like you and puni

शशांक शुक्ला said...

इसी वजह से आपके विचार सही लगते है। और इसीलिये मै आपका ब्लाग पढ़ता हूं। मदद मिलती है।

Anonymous said...

Iagree with jayasri and the change is phenomenal.. so proud of you now waiting for July 2010

Anonymous said...

Iagree with jayasri and the change is phenomenal.. so proud of you now waiting for July 2010

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